Love IS in between Sadness and regret~~

The story

Is A day a boy fall in love with a girl .. by just on the 1st sight ... don know why the feeling is there but no matter what the boy have a strong feeling , The boy thaught the girl as well....

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Don know what happen 1 day , theywent out for a trip , suddenly they click ... quickly without thinking much ... ERcmm and then both of them have a awesome night 2 gether .... but never did understand what happen then .....Blurrr

Then .. they wentfor a train Ride .. with the love that ... they had in their heart ... but with unsure answer... it went sour when reach another destination... i keep givin me excuse that ..

The word Scared.... and the girl did hurt the boy heart in the end ... saying I'm sorry

But the word .. saying to the boy telling no matter what the girl .. wil still be there but the boy never sure ... if the girl is telling the truth

XXX

JUst Nobody ~~

I just wanna know , I'm somebody or no Body is just feel like it , hard to make friends with me ?

Just unfair people think me as a punching bag or a joker face.. I'm Fucking tired of this shit do know me well sometime i cannot take it .

I learning to smile more and also make me a better person, or just the place i'm staying or going is not right or jst is a burden that i need to carry ...

i keep telling myself is who i wanna be wanna do better , no matter wat happen do all the way till the end ,

saying like walk till the end of the world just to search ur answer ~~

You will never regret , hope and thx to all my friends around me who are my friends .. and 4 best friends of mine

cheers.

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Grateful ~~

I just learn a lesson that i always ned to be grateful for the thing i have and all the thing i get now and also need to be truth to my self.. and all the thing that you did .. and the thing that you see and always believe urself that you should need to know tat .. grateful about the thing u always learn even your parent that scold you... cause if you never grateful the thing that you have now .. you won't be standing here today cause is very important that you need to know that achieve the thing you want or the thing that you cannot get will be there in the future ..

we always need to say thank you to all the thing around you and the thing not even exist even your food , car , parent , friends , the love your parent gave to you ...~~

Do it every morning and telll your self" thank you" .

Start the word with " i'm so happy and grateful that "... you guys fill the rest .

The Friendship!

The Friendship that well always have even doe we are not friends.. i feel invincible.. in their eyes.. o damn .. that is so fucking true.... believe it ...

do i believe tat life is so unfair and is so damn straight ... Hippocratic... haha don know if my spelling is right ?

by the way that is tat , my friends will always show in front of me who are going to care about me .. o r don show that they don care... thx

mY friends

Lie, and Distance And Fake

I believe that now days people call it friends is just somebody to help them and throw them on the side ,

i don really like tat feel at all.

never even i think i ever there ... damn

Wow.. i should do what i should do there, if you don like me going is ok cause i know i make u guys feel bad.

I don't understand people who at Hcc .. that make me if they just wanna talk outside school or something but i do understand that many faker.. and also people just wanna be ur friends because of something or all of it .. i do not believe that now day ... friends is true .. all are damn Fcuking lier.. and they don know even think other feeling fine .. i can just do my part .. damn i feel so stupid now ..

haha i do think so sometime cause they always people that be there and saying that you are nice .. cause i easy to get bully .. i always look down on u guys is not that i'm a person that easy and easy going is that you guys like to saying something that unbelievable.. stupid ... and i do know that is the thing that make u guys as low as a rat... maybe cause u guys are totally ... the Faker.!~~

Secret Of Love

L ife that you gave is the breath that i need.

O ver and over again the sweetness and tenderness that you gave is always in me

V erified it as the joined of both soul and body

E verywhere ,no matter what happen.

S oul that can bring courage and happiness to me .

The P***** Life

I do sometime wanna get out from the hell i been at .. cause the thing happen around me is not good to me .. but i learn that no matter wat happen here .. i will be mature enough.. to get out from it .. cause they will always somebody nice .. around the conner .. cause the person that understand me more is the person i will indeed cherish .. cause do some people don know me that well cherish

a friends like me ...

And to all the person that i promise i cannot do it .. is not i don;t want 2 ...c ause they always have some complication in the middle... i hope i can do beetter in the future.

i wanna find a good job here before i go to singapore to push my career there .. and i wanna do better more than ever .. and i;m not bloddy yound anymore .. F*** ..

haiz but now i realized , i can do more than i can do now .. but i will grew out from the bad 1 .. cause i know there still somebody will help me and support me all the way .. my friend s..the person .. i know they will always say hi 2 me

thx .. oh

oh yeah i forget .. i don't really feel fun when i was in taiwan at all.. but i feel relax when i was there .. cause forget about the under education .. or maybe the way they think is so kolot .. u know kolot .. and now is so bloddy ..2 1st ... do people still call me bapak ayam.. grow up .. man

anyway .. people around here is know how 2 shoot people ... but they don know how 2 look at them self .. cause they think they better than othere.. lol

The Words

hey .. been a while... since i wrote.. anything here .. bloddy hell lazy of .. me lol XD

i always feel lazy to wrote a blog cause there is nothing special happen around me now .. but i have friends ready to hear wat i say ..

Like yesterday i heard my best friends is goin to JB cause she say she scared of KL..OMg

really sometime she feel to lonely over there ...but is a good thing that she go somewhere that .. make her feel happy..

i wanna get a better job nowdays and also pass all my studies cause my exam is so coming up

help!!!

haha .. i know much people won't read my b;og cause is fucking bored and without new pic.. right

grrrr.... but .. who come in and have a look thx.. hope left some comment appreciate a lot

BY kenNy

Hope see u soon

Days goes bY

The days goes by .. feeling aroiund me going to change soon again.. people do change very quick and easy . but the importanat is wat is in ur heart.

I know that i been busy nows days and working and stuff.. but i do hope people around me do not change. i think .?

not sure .. haha

But in the days goes by i feel tat lonelyness is always staying here with the feeling that , Why i'm here and i feel so not good when people judge me in another way .. that the person that i;m not suppose to be ..

I hope u forgive me .. or let me be the person i wanna be ..

I hope u understand ok.

Greatness With friend ..

This few week is been a blast .

As well as i make new friends in different kind of way .. some of them is so noisy until my ear.. blOW!!!!

XD

but i feel happy that still have some people are crzy .

but at here i also have up and down .. maybe because i do think to much around me .

and i have some people who sad .. because of relationship and also studies .. cheers up ..

I always here to listen , if u have no body to talk 2. ok

don always kept it in ur heart and also make urself suffer so much ..

I also wanna say thx .. to all the friends that have been around me to cheers me up and bring me up to life cause when ever i down i need some one there to talk 2...really

I have feeeling 2 ok!

haha and also hari raya is coming soon

and also mooncake festival...

talk to u guys then , i be posing more pica then !!

XD

The Day is feel of surprise , that you don even realise .

People around u Feel of different camistry .

Do some people feel it some people don't.

But the day that feel with laughter , feel the happiness in thier heart.

Some feel the day with sadneess , that make stress in thier life .

Why do u do urself the sadness and the thing u don;t like to do Right ?

yeah of course , so No matter wat .... i want u 2 be there , Smile >>>> XD

Smile be always Next to U ^^

I be Always missing some body smile , when they next to me or The joke That make them SMile.

Smile Is always My best Look , i Think ... HEHE

Anyway
the thing is now days do hate to smile to other , when they each another or make a happy face ...
even the day is bad , the face will always look like they are dying , WHy ?


U know , the more U smile u can look younger and also your life will always fill with happiness, If u don't smile You get more stress ..

If u don believe me u can try when u sad and smile more and will make urself better a lot ...

Even some body bully u or make fun of u .

Smile will always bring happiness and the wonderful feeling...

XD

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i know tat , people now days are so , realistic and they always judge use by the look , and no matter wat happen, they will never understand how people feel when they said it out in thier face without prepare , as well as all the person who always use their friends .... **

I do feel bad when i always say something that not so good about somebody else .... i don know why , sorry if i keep doin something like this , i always know that people around me are all fakers .... and also that no matter where i go , i always try to be friends and they will say my face is so tick ..

i don get it , tell me why !

Trust **

Trust ..

That is something u believe and understand , most people always forget it cause of the daily life .

Trust is the thing u need to use in love or friendship or businesss... cause without it , u cannot do anything .

With peace.

In love is needed always cause , no matter wat happen u always need to trust each other to know wat they goin to do and also wat they do . without that both of the couple will always have a boundaries with each other and always say why i don't understand each other and always argue on small matter.

In friendship , is like a one way ticket and they always need trust with them, if not u will never find true friends that will always be there for u no matter wat happen.

In business , U need it cause U will not success if u don believe in ur partner, And U will have lost contact and everthing.

You will always need to know that , Trust in a very important inner ability and never use it to cheat somebody or use it for bad thing .

And In me i always need somebody trust me that undertstand me , cause that is always the thing i believe in "trust"

COllege~

I feel like i coming here is wasting my Time and the time tat had been going through is so long and useless,
i just heard a Friends say that , no matter Wat we ned to finish this course,

yeah , don worry about the lecture just do wat u need to do ?

really i hope we can, then that the another thing about friendship, some people just don know how to fogive ,
i hate people like tat around me ... shit anyway
maybe i way to sensitive .

i need to cheers up right ..
damn

sian

Dark Apple**

ApPle is like a person , the Coolour red appear to purenest in the heart ,

The Apple stay on The tree cause of the strong bond between family and Relationship.

Apple Will always change colour , cause when the colour change mean person will Change no matter how.

is only between good Or bad Apple.

So never judge the look On the apple cause The important is inSide not the Outside Cause u wIll never knew How dark is a person heart .

Even he is a good person .

remmeber This , Why do good people always have a second chance , and bad people don have second chance, or just people don give him / her Chance to change .

^^

Today , i skipping school.
don't feel like going to school because of the tiredness in my heart and do not feel like listening. 2 moro will be friday another ending month and ending week, they will be a lot of people goin back for weekend holiday and some go back for semester holiday so it will be a long term .

before they come bak we goin to have a exam for skm 1 in the college i hope i can pass , so that i can carry on with my study .

wisshing me , i mean myslef starting next week will be another great week for me to go on with my life .. XD

Days Walk through us like a lightning ~

Hey,

i'm back with my blogging to today again , and today i feel that people have another way of looking at me .

I don know why but i always feel unhappy , study here and feel regret to come here , but i need to push my self to finish this study so tat i can help my self and my family .

That is once , my best friends tell me , kenny why do u always carry a heavy bag around u , making urself strees with unnecessary reponsibilty . I do feel that but i also don understand , How come that i always make myself to let people wanna friends with me not , they friends with me.

i also do keep asking my self , why do guys people around me don't friends with me.
sometime i don;t really like college life, some of them make me unhappy always feel like been trow away , when they need you , they will tell u , when they don't need u they don even care.

but in my heart i will always know tat, no matter bad or good thing around me happen , i will face it with mature and positive way.

Believe~

Hi ,

kenny back again , i feel that they always have a person care for u even, u can't see it or feel it but they will always in ur heart .

i ask my friends today , do u think i'm a person that always don't have friends , but she say no

u need to think positive so that u can become a better person.

SO i think again , the thing she say is so true , i could not change other people thinking

but i can change myself to become better.

No matter where i go or where i been, i always need to be true to my self cause i know tat , person that i been this few years have been great and make my self very happy and never knew that i can do so many thing when i really wanna do it .

from encourgement from niki and my bff.. i will not be stronger than ever .

i will always cherish the person around me that always give me oppinion ... i'm feel so great ful.

The still important no matter u met new friends.. just u need to be true ur self .. and never be a person u don like ok..

cheers

kenny

Life is full of loneliness : (

I feel bad , i'm unhappy.

i don't like malaysia at all , totally i feel more happy at overseas and i wish goin away here for good.
wHy i miss malaysia, why i come back , why i need to take with this kind of shit all the time.

I feel so so tired , no matter what i do i think i don't do enough or wat .
even when i study here , people don treat me as friends and they always abandon me alone.

i feel so lonely here , that no body will ask me .
they rather ask somebody else.Do i a bad person or selfish person on the outside or look scary.
i don understand , really until know no body will really know wat i feel on the bottom or maybe i think to much.
maybe my mother and father are right , friends will always 1 day will backstab u or don accept u as their friends.
when i been nice to them , they always think i'm a bad person.
but never mind . i will always stay stroger till i prove the person i'm is not the person they always look and bully on.

still no matter how many place i go , i know outside there still people , love me for the person i'm . i will not let them down , i will stay strong to push all the way to the top .
i feel much better now that i say it all out that make me feel better .

The Sun and the Moon

The sun and the moon is like a love that never end cause both them will always be there for each other no matter What .

When the sun rise is make us feel happy with the warm and light in our heart .

when the moon rise it make us feel the night is full and dream with a lot of wishes to go on.

If our life is without the sun and moon we will feel empty .

another way of saying the thing we do in out life will always with up and down , no matter is a bright day or a dark sky .

when ever u feel empty find somebody near to u and always listen to you . there is always bad and good but the truth is there is no such thing as good and evil.

I only believe there is always something in the middle that make people do evil thing and good thing .

Is like the sun is the good and moon is the darkness.

So always remember that life is like the sun and moon , they always love each other till the end of the day. No matter wat happen .Even the hole world disagree with them.

New LIfe !~~

it been queit sometime , for me blogging .

But i feel the day that i start is always the day i feel like the thing i wanna say from my heart .

I feel that where ever go , i need to do something to prove mhy self to people but i will try to stay stronger cause is not easy to be me until today , and always i do abandon by my friends and i always feel i don have a friends around me tat will ask me how i'm and now the days we growing up.. thing change alot and i need to know , i need to grow up .

i take a look at my self in the past and i keep asking myself wat i been doin for this few years and wat do i get from the past few years.

i also just feel no matter where i go i need to have patient cause i been push and bully by my friends and some of them don know the limit . XD

but i will try to finish this studies and go far away from here cause i feel i don like it here cause the thing happen around me are not always wonderful but i know i have 4 of my best friends will be there .

The truth about Myself

To all of My friends. i 'm going to penang to study again for 1 and half year , be a bit lonely over there but
hope find new friends there
and this time i will come back and be much stronger than last time .
i hape let a lot of people down in my life to much and i keep doin something that make my self feel bad .. In my heart i always feel that something missing
iziit friends, family or lover .

that always confuse me to think a lot wat i should do
and what should i hope for myself in the future .
true i need to do something for myself and cannot be like a lazy person and i don understand why i'm so mess up